I know that this is happening for a reason. So I guess I am asking, why is this happening? Where are you trying to take me? I know you are trying to take me to a better place. It would be nice to know what that place looks like.
I will meditate throughout my day chant my mantra, keep my mind on higher things. I would like to be able to see that place. Not only would I like to see that place, I would like to have strength energy and enthusiasm to
work towards that place.
I want to be into my movie, realizing that this is the part I am to play. Play it and know that I am being led by you, knowing that you are coming through me in all my actions, and know that I am on a mission that you have chosen for me.
I know there are still some things I want to do in my life. I want to enjoy those things. Live out that worldly side of myself. At the same time, I want to allow you to work through me. I want to be one with you, yet have a part of myself and the same time, still be able to get myself out of the way. And I want to do it now. I may not be able to move into the whole place, with everything added materially right now, and I am thankful for all that I have right now, lord knows I have been blessed. But I want to be that person now, move through life as that person. And the only way I know how to do it with my limited vision, is do what ever it is you tell me to do, to trust you, seek you, with my soul. And at the same time realize that whatever wants I have along the way, whatever ways I feel I should be doing things, know that I am being led by you, because I am constantly seeking you. This is what I will do
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