Can’t find happiness outside.

I was thinking about, maybe remembering is a better word. I was remembering how futile a task it is to chase after happiness in material situations. During this thought process and remembering I was brought back to a dream that I shared with some people just recently. In the dream I was talking about all the wonderful things that I had in my world. My friend and I were reminding one another just how good we have it. The funny thing is after coming out of this dream which truly reminded me just how great my life is and has been, I felt incredibly empty. My first thought was “Why do I feel so empty after being reminded of how good I have it?”

I soon realized it was because of the focus of the dream. The focus was on situations coming together in a favorable way. I also realized that for some time I may have been focusing on the same thing in my waking life, getting situations to turn out right and holding everything together. The truth is there is so much more to life and to happiness. I noticed some time ago that I am most happy when I am focused on getting my lessons and seeing God working in my world. Sure it is nice to have things work out. But even more important is me getting my lessons and growing through the process, and seeing God and the magic of the universe in my world. When this becomes my focus I am enthused as I sift through the events to get what is magically coming my way in the form of a lesson. usually I can look back and see how the situation was attracted to me based on the lesson that I was to get out of it. When I truly get it, life is incredible and I can see just how magically everything was designed just for me to finally get the lesson. And although the situation at hand becomes more favorable as I get my lesson, that’s not the best part. The best part is seeing that God is with me and seeing there is a magic and order behind things and knowing in that moment that everything is always working in my favor. That is something else. The focus and the process that brings such a realization wipes out any feeling of emptiness and replaces it with meaning and wonder.

2 Replies to “Can’t find happiness outside.”

  1. aquamarine

    my life feels empty. Do you have any suggestion? I sometimes have the feeling to just go to the forest and become a monk. Then, would life be better that way. Here everything seems empty and not lasts forever. But I think I have this cowardice inside, or am I not grateful enough? I just wanna be happy.

    • Craig Kimbrough

      Hello my friend. For people like you and me the answer is not in the forest. As my teacher Mr. Ambrister used to say, “You cannot get spiritual by denying yourself the things of this world. The idea is to live, go after your dreams and meditate often to be free of what happens as you live your adventure. I will do a blog on this in the next day or two for more. Thank you for reading and sharing.

      In the meantime think of what you love doing or would love to do. Find ways to move towards it, and meditate for more peace and guidance.


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